the irony of being alone.

i chatted with a former college classmate of mine.first question she thought about was how nikki is.i really didnt know what to say but i eventually told her the truth.i expected alteast a comforting word from her but i didnt get anything. its not that i needed sympathy or anything but i felt bad at first about it but then i realized that people wont do anything for us. they may give us support and make things easier for us but in the end we are the ones who we should rely on. no on will make the pain go away. no one will solve problems that only we are capable of solving.

but right now i am very thankful to her..nikki who made everything possible for me.. for making me feel stronger by leaving me and making me realize that i can rely on myself. thanks for giving me the opportunity of correcting my past mistakes..

new life has been given to me. this is the worst and best part of losing the one you love..

im still hoping that one day when im a better person you will get to see it...