yesterday i came to their play in st paul manila...i couldnt stop laughing...it came out of hand and couldnt control myself...anyway after that we went to yani's burol again...our travel time was even longer than the time we stayed in there...then i accompanied her to her house and got home finally at around 10 pm...i feel hella guilty for making yani as an excuse for my mom while i make my own "lakad". I dont think that yani deserves such things from me.have i no respect for the dead.i should i say im just reallly really madly over to the max inlove with her...enough of this crap...anyway...last night after while i was watching tv..i was sitting on our sofa and suddenly i heard someone walking.then i saw a white person walking on our sidewalk (i just call it sidewalk).her slippers were real noisy and i think the soles were real thick...then i asked who was it...no one answered...so i felt that its the person whom i expected to come to me...so i tried to talk to her...saying all the stuff that i should...its really great coz i told people that i wanted to feel her...and she didnt scare me at all...so i got rid (of some) of the things that has been adding up on the load on which my exhausted heart carries...i was really relieved...believing that shes listening and all.. i hope i talked to the right person...i hope i wasnt a mediocre prank that was just pulled by anyone or even by my eyes...so i was able to sleep soundly last night nga pala...but my mom was real mad because of my shitty talks...i told her to prepare food for around 6 people...she insisted to stay at home instead of going to star city just to cook for us.but much to her dismay...i didnt come...shitty eh?anyway...i was really guilty and all si that added up (again) to the burden that my heart is carrying...but in a was i was really touched because of that simple thing...eventhough she woke me up 6 am in the morning while hitting me with a comb...i felt real lucky having her...she made a little sacrifice for me..although it got to waste it still made a lot of help in making me a better person...i learned a lot of things...i hope that i could live with this...so ill just end this blog right now...im gonna ask chino if my mom's really coming of not...because i should meet my friends (whom i badly mis) at BK at around 11 am..hope i could come...*sigh*