finally...

we havent seen each other for 3 days till yesterday.twas like a long time na eh noh.but its ok.absence really makes the heart grow fonder.but not in her case.its like i mis her more when we dont see each other for a longer period of time.and i think i have given her much already.my whole blogger page is dedicated to her actually.but i dont want to take credit for all those efforts.coz when ur inlove,things really change around you.the way you dress up,the way you SPEND (i feel my pockets are crying already),the way you talk to people,the way you look at her,the way you text,your priorities also change.but whats weirder is that all of those are just fine and you dont do a single thing about it.i know i have pampered her a little too much,and i just tolerate it.but its really ok with me.sometimes it just becomes a pain in the ass when i think about it.and it gets even weirder everyday when you do a lot of sacrifices and almost die giving her all the things she asked for..then you breakdown and get mad..but she just says one i love you and all the hatred and anger just vanishes.she has been a big part of my life and im wondering if this ever ends, what would be left of me.i know i have been a casanova these past few days and i think i deserve some of the love right?
i know she loves me..but will this never end?
the answer is so obvious...but why did we give it a try?!because its better to plunge deep into that well,knowing that a lot of pain and suffering will be the outcome than just stare at it and let it pass by.i still think that i have made things that i still regret..but this is one thing that i think that i wont...its loving her with all that i have.

now the future is so vague as i can see.but as long as i have her..im not afraid to walk through it.i just hope that she wouldnt get tired of me..