for a moment there i thought that i lost 2 of my latest blogs.it isnt easy taking down all of my thoughts if u know what i mean.hehe.anyway.
here we move on again with another chapter of my shitty ass life as i may compliment it.today is what i recall my favorite date 2 years ago.its our first monthsary with my ex.having our first monthsary did have a lot of memories.we had our petty fight on this date and i had the nsat test simultaeneously with their play's practises.so there it came.we fought and i just went to atc or some palce instead.i just forgot the place where i sought refuge.hehe.so enough of those childish memories.hihi.
the main reason i blogged today because i dont know how to find an outlet to let go of my feelings.i feel that im going to explode any moment now.and shes the only reason why.yesterday we went out to watch LOTR II.i went with her without hesitation eventhough i already watched that film for like 3 times.so there we were in the moviehouse.there was i again.in the same scenario.quiet and devoted.(haha).so after the film i accompanied her till moonwalk.so okay,there wasnt anything crappy or anything.just a little "tampo" when we were at casimiro.she kept on stressing the fact that we were "friends" and she told me what happened to her and her ex the night before.she was furious of someone who liked her ex....later lastnight.she called me.dropcall actually.she asked me if she could call me.so i told her yes.i was talking to someone that time.someone who i used to like.so she called alright.then i told her what is her problem.if she needed help or something.then she quickly told me that she should hang up.whats her freakin problem..?!i mean i have been bothered by that simple phonecall.and now she acts as though nothing happened.hay.if i could just tell her everything that i feel..hmm...which gives me the idea.aha!i know what to do.lets just wait and see...Ü