ill double post for the first time in blog history ehehe..
its february 27 2003.and i met my ex on february 27,1999
wow.time really flies.and im glad that i keeping daph as my friend.ill greet her later haha bibiruin ko lang.i also mis that little girl eh.shes happy na with her current catch as i may coin the term hehe.were both happy with our lives.we just hope that it would last kahit na alam namin na mag eend.hay.until when would i stick myself into this?hehe.im so into...her.

finally...

we havent seen each other for 3 days till yesterday.twas like a long time na eh noh.but its ok.absence really makes the heart grow fonder.but not in her case.its like i mis her more when we dont see each other for a longer period of time.and i think i have given her much already.my whole blogger page is dedicated to her actually.but i dont want to take credit for all those efforts.coz when ur inlove,things really change around you.the way you dress up,the way you SPEND (i feel my pockets are crying already),the way you talk to people,the way you look at her,the way you text,your priorities also change.but whats weirder is that all of those are just fine and you dont do a single thing about it.i know i have pampered her a little too much,and i just tolerate it.but its really ok with me.sometimes it just becomes a pain in the ass when i think about it.and it gets even weirder everyday when you do a lot of sacrifices and almost die giving her all the things she asked for..then you breakdown and get mad..but she just says one i love you and all the hatred and anger just vanishes.she has been a big part of my life and im wondering if this ever ends, what would be left of me.i know i have been a casanova these past few days and i think i deserve some of the love right?
i know she loves me..but will this never end?
the answer is so obvious...but why did we give it a try?!because its better to plunge deep into that well,knowing that a lot of pain and suffering will be the outcome than just stare at it and let it pass by.i still think that i have made things that i still regret..but this is one thing that i think that i wont...its loving her with all that i have.

now the future is so vague as i can see.but as long as i have her..im not afraid to walk through it.i just hope that she wouldnt get tired of me..

it feels rejuvenating when uve heard your favorite song at the radio...i have my own personal favorite right now.Ü.its quite corny for other people but i really could relate to this song..and haha..something happened when it was played once,i was in a state of super kiligness..haha if thats what u call it,and she was beside me that time so i really felt.umm,mixed?!hehe..


If You're Not The One-daniel bedingfield

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I

i love her but there are so many challenges..she loves me kaya?she told me eh.....

ok im here again at irc....*** chi^ is now known as mm`fats

shovin my way off to hiatus from this blogger isnt what i think of as a good idea..hehe.i want,if possible..to remember all the dates that are memorable to me.but lately i think all the days are memorable,specially when i have her.i dont actually have her.i dont own her.i just love her.and she actually loves me.um....i think she has proven enough now,i told her that.imagine,hinatid niya ko sa school from southmall.i never felt so KILIG lately but she sis gave me the chills that day...actually that was just monday(feb17).maybe because it was 17..hehe..inspired eh.and yesterday.i fetched her from her school.but i didnt attend 3 subjects.we had a fight.maybe it wasnt much of a big deal to her.but for me it was.petty fights add up to a big nasty one.considering our incompatible philosophies when it comes to hiding anger,i could say that it might lead to a very serious problem.i have the tendency to just ignore my anger and lower my pride just for the sake of not arguing.but she does not like the idea of being that lenient,she wants see through me,to see my emotions and not stare at me not as an opaque object.now i taste the sweetness and bitterness of loving someone.sweet because you are being loved in return.but bitter because you have so succumb yourself to please everyone else.including yourself.there are a lot of things at stake when you love.but im truly assured that the things i get in return are truly rewarding.she sent me a quote just the other day it goes this way "in god's time, you will fall in love for the right reason,to the right person.when that time comes, that love will be worth the LONG wait,the tears and pain...then u will forget you ever waited."the quote struck me the same way she asked me if she was worth the wait.she's right,i have waited a LOOONG time.3 years maybe was enough for me to prove how much i love her.its her turn to prove it...although i have seen her efforts..ill just wait and see...

there are plenty of things to do...

so little time...

love bites and usually we scratch them with much pleasure that sometimes we forget the scar that it would inflict afterwards...

hella applicable again?thats because i made it myself.considering that im being bitten by these freakin mosquitoes for about 3 hours now.the endless battle between me and my fellow parasites have never been ended.and i think of sure that it never will.hehe.anyway...

my friends have complimented me the other day being "uniquely happy".maybe love isnt that bad after all.hehe